It’s week 15 of the Packed Lunch Challenge! It’s all wrapped up, and I have to tell you, for this week things seemed to be a lot easier when it came to packing my lunch. I won’t lie, my husband it really good at helping me with it (because I am SPOILED like that, and GRATEFUL for it)! Still, maybe it’s the spring air, maybe I am just feeling more energetic, I’m not sure, but I know I wasn’t feeling so annoyed over the process.
I’ll be honest, there have been times when I could have kicked my own butt for starting this challenge. There have been weeks when I felt like if I had to write one more post about packing my lunch I was going to flip out and go a little bonkers. Now that I think about it though, I realized the REAL truth behind those feelings:
Inside, I just wanted to go back to the old bad habits because the new habit is HARD!
It’s hard to change your lifestyle completely. It’s hard to put yourself at your worst online, and it’s hard to look at yourself and know that only YOU are responsible for your current health, and only YOU can change it.
I said I made “a” mistake this week and the truth is I made several. Let’s go in order:
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Yes, I am boo’ing myself. Not to be hard on myself, but to kick myself in the butt for working so damn hard last week, and throwing it all away with some bad eating habits at dinner time. SO BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO me!
Not that everything was bad. That was some fresh zucchini we tossed in olive oil and pepper and threw on the grill. We added a 4oz filet mignon and some tiny grilled shrimp to it too, so overall it was a healthy dinner. We did eat out a few times though, and that was my downfall for the week.
I received a great offer for a personal training program (free to me) and that I would start it April 1 (my chosen start date) and I haven’t done it yet. The truth is this, I saw one of the exercises on the work out and THOUGHT I physically couldn’t do it. So, I tried it, and I physically couldn’t do it. Not that I didn’t want to, not that I didn’t want to try, but LITERALLY because of my body I couldn’t do it, (my back started to lock up) and I let it stop me. I freaked out. I let my mind win because I was afraid of pain.
Instead, I should have emailed him, or just reminded myself that the Pyramids were built brick by brick, and just because I can’t do something today doesn’t mean I can’t do it tomorrow. So, right now, I am giving a big apology to Josh and promising that I am starting TODAY, and for the next 30 days, you’re my guide through all of this! Today, I stop being a freaking chicken and I move forward, 100% because I owe you that and I WANT TO!
Not setting new goals. I wanted to be at the 20lbs. weight loss mark last week, and I made it happen because I worked my ass off for it. But after I hit that 20 lbs. mark, I didn’t set a new goal. I didn’t find a way to keep pushing forward because I hit my goal. Well, DUH, I needed to make a new one, and I didn’t, and what happened? Well, the fit fairy didn’t come make it magically happen. Damn. So, here are my new goals, a short-term, and a longer term goal. Call them mini-challenge within the challenge, and we’ll see if I can get them done!
Goal 1- 100% commit to the 30 day course I was provided and make the best effort to follow the guidelines.
Goal 2- Today is EXACTLY 3 months until my 37th birthday. If I lose weight in a healthy way (2 lbs a week average), then I should weigh 24 lbs. less by my birthday, but I am going to go for 30, because go big or go home!
Goal 3- Get my butt out of bed in the morning and start with a morning workout for 30 days.
Goal 4- Take weekly measurements. I could really kick myself for not doing this from the start. There have been weeks when I KNOW I lost inches, but the scale didn’t move. There are changes going on that I FEEL, but I don’t think photos always show. I KNOW my thighs are toning up. I KNOW my abs are toning up, but those are all things I know you aren’t seeing in photos. So, I want to make sure I am not fooling myself, and I want that extra measure of proof that things ARE WORKING for me.
You all made it clear in the survey you took for me that you want some recipes. I’ll be honest when I tell you this is something I have fought against 100% because I DO NOT EVER want to be a “food” blogger. I have the utmost respect to those people because it is an absolute CRAP TON of work. However, since The Walking Dead is over, my sister-in-law, Kara, has offered to help me with some photos of recipes etc. Not because I “can’t” cook, but because it’s REALLY hard to cook, while taking great photos, and making it all come together for a blog post. Today Kara is cooking, and I’ll be taking photos, so we can try to get some recipes up for you.
If it works out well, we will continue. If not, I am NOT going to force myself to do something I don’t love. Life is too short.
So, I shared what held me back this week. If you haven’t started making change for yourself, tell me something: What’s holding YOU back?
Also, let me know if there are certain foods you would like to see featured in recipes. (You peeps BETTER give me some feedback on this since I am caving in for you!!!!!!!! *glare face*) <3
Oh, I also changed the graphic. What do you think?