So, here we are. Week 16 of the Packed Lunch Challenge, technically 4 months in. This week has been a week when I learned a lot more about this challenge than I thought I would.
I’m not providing photos this week, and I am telling you that up front. There are a few reasons:
1. I want to spend my time this week talking about the emotions of weight loss and this challenge.
2. My husband started a new job and had to be at work at 6 am; he’s usually my photographer. (I need to figure out timed shots.)
3. I lost .5 lbs. from last week, which is good…I didn’t gain.
4. My sister-in-law and I did squeak out a recipe for you. I am going to take the time to edit and work on those photos today so that you will have a shiny new recipe up on Tuesday!
It’s about to get REAL personal on this blog today.
I’ve mentioned before that I have PCOS. The short version of this means, I don’t know if or when I am going to have a cycle. When I do have them, they are usually pain filled and very uncomfortable. However, it also usually means I don’t have surges of hormones either.
I have always heard that the fat in your body stores extra hormones. I could not find a medical article to back it up, but I did find lots of posts on weight loss forums that mention roller coasters emotions while going through the weight loss process. I found this interesting because I recently had a conversation with my sister-in-law lately about feeling like the hormone rumor was true because the most weight I lose, the crankier I get.
What I did not take into account, is my PCOS also fluctuates with my weight loss. For example, when I first started this challenge, I did not have a cycle AT ALL from January thru March. Usually every 10-15 lbs or so it will go wonky and everything will stop until I either lose more weight or gain it back. SO why am I sharing this?
Last week, the following happened:
I became raging pissed at a boss who I adore over something stupid. He hasn’t pissed me off in 8 months I’ve worked there, and I was LIVID.
I was snappy with my husband countless times.
Don’t even get me started on the walk I took with my big dog and her lack of leash training…I was almost in tears after a half mile walk and I was in AGONY.
My back was on fire the whole week.
I spent Friday night watching Britain’s Got Talent videos and crying over every video where someone went to the next round.
I haven’t felt like doing a damn thing, working out, cleaning, packing my lunch…absolutely zilch.
Oh, and I went from craving vinegar….yes VINEGAR one minute to chocolate the next, and chocolate is not something I normally crave. Nothing was helping the cravings either. I could have seriously upended a bottle of balsamic vinegrette salad dressing into my mouth…it was bad.
I had absolutely no idea what was going on. I completely felt like the world was spinning and I was out of control, but on a ride with no exit…I haven’t felt that way in a long damn time. I guess in a good way, it’s all a good thing, my body is acting like it’s supposed to. Unfortunately, I have to remember what that’s like and learn to handle those feelings that happen when the hormones surge.
This journey is not always sunshine, rainbows, and unicorns folks. Sometimes, it’s an ugly process for me, but I am doing the best I can with what I have and working pretty hard at not giving in this time.
What challenges have you faced when it comes to losing weight? Am I alone in the world of crazy hormone surges?